Plethora of Everything

 Count the days, there cannot be too many. You can do this. Don't look at billboards.  Don't look at litter. Don't listen to news. Don't listen to your child's smartass replies.  Don't look in the mirror.  You can do this.  Don't do that... don't go there. Don't go anywhere.  Stay here... but here is not comfortable.  But why... that's too deep.   Just stay here, don't go there. Don't go there. Go there, go on a plane, go far away.   Go away from today. Go away from how you feel.  But you have to do that while you stay here.   How...that's too deep. That's too hard.  Just stay here. Just deal.  Just deal. Just cope.  \ You can do it. You've done it before... but why again ...that's too deep.   Just rest. -I can't. 

Revised 03-29-18 I can stand being around myself But I can't always stand being around myself with someone else A perfect stranger is OK, but someone I know really well sometimes doesn't make me feel that swell I'm OK to touch but to talk calmly, rationally, not so much Is it cool to be this way? Not so much When will I reintegrate? How long will it take? Why do I have to reintegrate every day, sometimes the whole day through? Why can't it be done once and that's it, you're through? Apaga la mente That's the solution para toda la gente Pónte en un estado de 'ser' to the point you forget how it feels to care The problem- it can take a mind-altering substance or a national disaster to get you there... to that place where u no longer care. Surrender Detachment, as the Buddhists call it If it were tangible I'd eat it I'd sell it I'd haul it Initially written in my notebook, in early June on a gloomy day M...